A lonely post.

Song of the Day: http://youtu.be/RJnMLBXm5VA
Cameron Mitchell's Such a Mystery

Hello and welcome back to my semi-normal life. Maybe that will mean I actually, like, update my blog and stuff (because I do so much of that). I think the biggest part of it is that I feel like I have nothing to really talk about on said blog that I am currently writing on. I mean, I don't live an exciting life. I get up, go to school, come home and do my homework, watch something on Netflix, and then go to bed. 

I'm really good at existing, aren't I?

This might be because I don't really have a lot of friends at school. I mean, let's face this, I'm really not good at making friends (sorry). I'm really shy/I have a hard time connecting to a lot of people. I just feel so different from most people. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be anti-social or anything. I try to be nice to people, and talk to them or whatever. I'm just not good at making friends. It might be a disease or something.

And it doesn't help that my roommates are either never around or are really good at not making any sounds at all. It's nice most days, but when I'm having a day like today, I like to have a little companionship or something, you know? I kind of have had the two extremes of roommates so far: last year, they were always around and being really loud and noisy. It was obnoxious a lot of the time, but it meant that they were there. And I was actually friends with them too. This year, I feel like I'm living with a bunch of strangers because I never see them. I have one roommate that I've probably seen five or six times total. And today, on campus, I was starting my walk home, and I saw a girl that I thought might have been my roommate, but I wasn't sure, so I didn't want to say hi to her and feel totally stupid or something.

Long story short: I'm totally lonely. If you're nearby, please come visit me.

In the meantime, I'll probably watch a movie on Netflix and go to bed since there's nothing else to do. Maybe I'll edit my story... I need to do that. 

Ideas to make my blog better/more interesting:

• list all my anime crushes I've ever had
• post about all my favorite bands/artists
• post about my favorite movies/tv shows/anime
• get a social life
• post about my favorite stories

Sunny Days.

Song of the Day: I Was Made For Sunny Days by the Weepies

For some reason or other, I get the incredible urge to update my blog on Thursdays.But why Thursdays? Perhaps it is because Thursdays are good days. I like Thursdays because it's almost Friday. On a similar note, I also like Tuesdays because it's no longer Monday. Ya dig?

This is my last full week of classes. Next week, we have Good Friday off, and the following week, Friday is a study day. The week after is Finals week. I'm pretty excited to get school over with for the summer. I am ready for some heat in these bones and some leisure reading/drawing/writing time. Hopefully, I'll get time to finish watching the entire Sailor Moon series. It's a project I started the day after Valentine's Day. Sailor Moon was a huge part of my childhood; I was obsessed! I would print out coloring pages, record episodes, even google Sailor Moon websites built by people who were in love with Sailor Moon (like me) but had the ability to make their own webpage. Watching the series again is a lot of fun, and it's more fun to watch it in its original language (which is the whole purpose of me watching it again... To see the original intent mostly. The English version is nice too though. Maybe I'll watch it in English one day? In like four years from now...)

Also, on a Sailor Moon-y note, they are re-releasing the manga of Sailor Moon in America with new translations. Call me a nerd (which, I'm assuming you all ready have), but I'm really excited for the new releases! If I get money, I fully plan on buying them for my own library. (:

[/end nerd rant]

Between now and Finals, I have to:

1. Write my 10 page ENGL 2010 research paper (which I have nine pages of single spaced notes all ready typed and ready to go. I just have to physically write the paper now).

2. Write/hopefully complete (but it's okay if I don't finish 100%) my ENGL 2600 essay on a Post-colonial reading of James Joyce's A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and To Kill a Mockingbird (10-12 page paper).

3. Do my ENGL 2600 take-home final (it's on key terms and stuff. Hate you, Literary Theory).

4. Study for my German Final

5. Study for my Intro to Diversity Final

6. Not kill any of my room mates (who are incessantly loud and obnoxious during the hours I typically like to sleep, between 11 and 8. Yes, I sleep a lot. I like to sleep. It keeps me from not killing anyone).

And that's basically my state I will be in for the next three weeks. I'll probably procrastinate a lot and freak out at last minute. But that's okay, I kind of like it that way.

Life So Far.

Song of the Day: Get Some by Lykke Li

As it turns out, when my hair is pulled back in a bun, and I'm wearing a hoodie, I look like I'm five-years-old. I suppose this isn't a huge shock, but still. I just thought I would point that out.

But here I am, sitting on my bed listening to a new album I just got (Parlor Hawk's Hoarse and Roaring. It's divine so far), and with a massive stomach ache (nothing new), contemplating my life. True, I tend to do this more often than not anymore, but still.

All that I have uncovered is that I want to be able to draw flowers. 

Okay, so, maybe there's a little more to it. 

Lately, I actually have been considering switching schools because of my difficulty I've been having with basic academic work for a typical university (On a side note, if anyone know anything about Post-structuralism and Joyce's A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, let me know. I need help writing a paper). I even talk to my mom about dropping out of school. Her response was that I should do what I want to do, but she thinks that I should stay in school to be around people closer to my age. This makes well enough sense. So, I'm probably not going to drop out of school because of that very reason, and the fact that I am one class short of getting an associate's degree. The bad news about getting the degree itself, is that I can't receive it until the end of the net academic school year. Sucks, no? Looks like I'll be here for another year. But I think I'll be okay. Instead of signing up for classes that I have to take, I'm actually taking a ton of mismatched classes that I kind of want to take, like Drawing I and Children's Literature. True, I still have to take Chemistry and pretend to be an English major (therefore, I have to take German too. This is not so bad though. I like German for the most part), but I really do think next semester will be better.

Anyway, after the year is over, I'm thinking about transferring to an art school, like the Art Institute up in Salt Lake, and studying Interior Design. I know I'm crazy, but it sounds fun, and it sounds like something I really should do.

Don't get me wrong about SUU, I love it here. I have never had a bad professor, and campus is sweet and cozy. I really do love it here, but it's not for me. University isn't for me.

Actually, what I really want to do is find the man of my dreams and get married (my true passion... to raise kids and clean and cook! Yes, I was like this before General Conference, thanks). But I don't see that happening this year. So, I have my plan, and I'm sticking to it.

Unless something awesome happens (like getting married or publishing my book).

Yes, I had to bring up my book. Sunflowers. I've mentioned it once or twice before, yes? Well, actually, an amazing thing happened recently. I finished my first draft of my manuscript! This sounds really exciting, but I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be when I finished for some reason. It's probably because I still have a long way to go with editing and supplementing chapters and whatnot, but still. It's done. I have never finished a manuscript before.

This is amazing. 

This week seemed so long. And now, it's Thursday.