Goals.

Beside the fact that I am dying a slow death from daily stomach aches, I do try to function as normally as I should be. Okay, so it probably wasn't normal that I cried throughout the ENTIRE A Cinderella Story, but I do what I can.

Lately, I have been wondering why I haven't been able to focus (yeah, I am blogging instead of doing homework) on anything (see what I mean? I'm totally A.D.D.), but I thought I would at least have a few goals to work on for the next several weeks:

1. Stop chewing finger nails. It's a nasty habit that I have. It's on and off, really, but I'm trying. I even painted my nails today, in hopes that it'll help somewhat. I want pretty nails... (:

2. Finish ENGL 2010 research paper. I want this to be done in the next several weeks, like, around General Conference. Once it's finished, I don't have to go to the class anymore. Nice, no? Not to mention, it's supposed to be 10-12 pp long, and I have another 10-12 pp paper due at the end of the semester on top of this one.

3. Finish Sunflowers. If you're not aware what Sunflowers is, don't ask. Only one/maybe two people will even care about this. I just want to finish it mostly. (:

4. Figure out why I am dying a slow death due to stomach aches.

yep. That's about it. I'm sorry my blogs are few and far between. I like to blog sometimes, but I feel like all I do is complain, and I also feel like not many people even care that I blog. So, I just do when I feel like it.

That's all.

my nostalgia playlist.

http://8tracks.com/ohlovelyy/nostalgia

I spent nearly two days on this. Well, not this particular playlist, but a much larger one I'm keeping on my iTunes. Maybe I did it to make myself feel somewhat accomplished since it's Spring Break (accomplished: sat on my butt, watched the end of Sailor Moon R, made this playlist, cleaned my room, procrastinated on homework... yep, fairly average Spring Break here. I wish I had more will to do things).

Basically, it contains a sampling of my favorite music when I was in elementary school. I think my next playlist will be sixth grade to sophomore year. After that, my music taste has stayed pretty consistent. 

But I'll leave that playlist to another day. 

The List (if you listen to it, the order should be different from this. It's randomized every time it's played):

• The Hardest Part of Breaking Up (Is Getting Back Your Stuff) by 2gether
• Spinnin' Around by Jump5
• Mmmbop by Hanson
• He Loves Me (He Loves You Not) by Dream
• I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys
• The Call by the Backstreet Boys
• Bye Bye Bye by 'NSYNC
• Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney 
• Summer Girls by LFO
• Pop by 'NSYNC
• Never Had a Dream Come True by S Club 7
• S Club Party by S Club 7
• I Need Love by 'NSYNC
• Tearin' Up My Heart by 'NSYNC
• When the Lights Go Out by 5ive
• Come Clean by Hilary Duff
• What Dreams Are Made Of by Hilary Duff
• The Sign by Ace of Base
• ...Baby One More Time by Brittany Spears
• Bouncing Off the Ceiling by A*Teens
• Stride (Jump on the Frenzy) by Aaron Carter
• Another Earthquake by Aaron Carter
• Gimmie Gimmie Gimmie by A*Teens

nostalgia.

Okay. Confession: I love nostalgia. Seriously. I'm like obsessed with it (always). Some days I have it more than others, but it's been eating at me for the past few days. I'm actually rewatching Sailor Moon (one of my favorite shows growing up) in my spare time.

Also, I'm making a nostalgia playlist. It's taking a lot more time than I ever thought it would.. but it'll be worth it. I'm making a big one on my iTunes, but when I'm done, I'll make an 8track playlist too. 

Note 8tracks. It's heaven. Seriously. Get an account and go to heaven with me~

Anyway, I'm only blogging because I'm waiting *patiently* for Happy Nation to download. I only have a few minutes left (thank goodness. It's been nearly a half hour! Apparently my patience is feeling nostalgic too and I'm slowly turning into a five-year-old). 

But that sums up my Spring Break. That and I have been reading (The Lovely Bones). As you can see, I am an inspiring person. Interesting person on the year, right here.

I'm sure many people care. (:

apology.

If I ever sound like I'm depressed, I'm really not. I promise.

It's not that I try to be depressing... I just am. And that's why people don't like me.

That was depressing.

I'm going to shut up now.

hair.

Song of the day: Rainside by Agnes Obel

Lately, I have been having a love-hate relationship with my hair. I really want to grow it out and braid it, etc...

Fun fact: My hair has been short since 28 February 2009. My hair is the longest it has been in over two years! That's like a mission.

Speaking of missions, I would like to, uh, publicly (?) declare my excitement for Sir Cody Eckman for being called to Africa. That is super exciting!! It seems like the perfect place him to go, yes?

Anyway, my love-hate relationship I have going on.

I want to grow my hair our, but it has recently gotten really heavy and it's having a hard time curly/waving/whatever my hair does). I love my curly hair and I'm afraid if I grow it too long it will just be gross... :(

Also, my hair grows really fast. It's kind of scary.

Carly and I being goobs, September 2010

Today, 5 March

Spring Fever.

Song of the Day: The Concurrence of All Things by Big Tree

Last night, my room mates (Carly, Megan, and Bree) and I went down to the good ol' STG and went to the temple. We arrived around 3, and it was absolutely beautiful there. It was probably about 62 degrees and sunny and glorious. It was glorious inside the temple as well (just so you know).

But ever since we went down there, I have had the worst spring fever ever. And this weather is not helping much either. It was in the mid-50s, partly cloudy.... It's not perfect, but it's better than being freezing cold with a foot of snow.

So, today, Carly and I opened out window a bit and cleaned our room. I never knew how OCD I was until I got my own apartment with five other girls. I love having things to be clean and straight and tidy. And I feel my best right after I'm done cleaning because everything is... clean! And that's the way it should be. (:

Anyway, I have completed my day by doing two of my favorite activities, coloring and playing the piano. So, I have to say, today has been a success even if it is a Thursday.

On a complete side note, I have implicated the following survival strategy for my weeks:

Monday: Is it Friday yet? (complain a lot)

Tuesday: Is it Friday yet? (complain a lot)

Wednesday: Is it Friday yet? (complain less because the week is half over)

Thursday: Tomorrow is Friday! (be somewhat happy with life)

Friday: All I have to do is live through class and I'm free! (complete happiness)

Saturday: CRAP! I have an essay due Monday! (procrastinate somewhat)

Sunday: Church~ But I still have to finish my homework... (sadness that tomorrow is Monday)

And repeat.

Sleeping/Dreaming

It's Gotta Be You by the Backstreet Boys

It has recently been enlightened upon my mind why I am having such a hard time in school. And by enlightened, I mean lightbulb to the extreme. Well, in reality, it should not have been this hard to figure it out, because it's such a big part of my personality.

I am a total dreamer. I love to sit down and scroll through pictures, write a little, and doodle. I like using my mind creatively. On the other hand, I am also obedient. I do what is expected of me. Therefore, I am in school pursuing something that is I consider to be the most sensible of my talents. I'm sure my family already thinks I'm crazy for "being an author" as my choice of career. I am well aware that writing books isn't going to get me very far.

It also really sucks, just so you know. Saying "I'm an English major," that is. Whenever someone finds that out, they just say, "Oh, are you going to be a teacher?"

NO.

GO DIE.

NOW.

Anyway, back on topic, I am a dreamer. I have a hard time sitting down and doing what I'm told to do when my mind is really not into it. It's like, my whole life has been "sit down, shut up, do what you're told," and now I finally have freedom... kind of. I still feel like I am trapped in life, and I can't stand it.

Really, all I want to do with my life is to write books and draw. I want to be a homemaker. I want to be a mom!

I'm starting to find school to be less and less necessary.