Sleeping/Dreaming

It's Gotta Be You by the Backstreet Boys

It has recently been enlightened upon my mind why I am having such a hard time in school. And by enlightened, I mean lightbulb to the extreme. Well, in reality, it should not have been this hard to figure it out, because it's such a big part of my personality.

I am a total dreamer. I love to sit down and scroll through pictures, write a little, and doodle. I like using my mind creatively. On the other hand, I am also obedient. I do what is expected of me. Therefore, I am in school pursuing something that is I consider to be the most sensible of my talents. I'm sure my family already thinks I'm crazy for "being an author" as my choice of career. I am well aware that writing books isn't going to get me very far.

It also really sucks, just so you know. Saying "I'm an English major," that is. Whenever someone finds that out, they just say, "Oh, are you going to be a teacher?"

NO.

GO DIE.

NOW.

Anyway, back on topic, I am a dreamer. I have a hard time sitting down and doing what I'm told to do when my mind is really not into it. It's like, my whole life has been "sit down, shut up, do what you're told," and now I finally have freedom... kind of. I still feel like I am trapped in life, and I can't stand it.

Really, all I want to do with my life is to write books and draw. I want to be a homemaker. I want to be a mom!

I'm starting to find school to be less and less necessary.