on being shy.

song of the day: Olly Olly Oxen Free by Gregory and the Hawk.

So, here she is. That shy girl who bites her cheeks and her face turns pink at any sight of possible embarrassment. But, you know, it's not like I can help it. I have been this way for as long as I can remember. I don't like public speaking or even going to the store alone, but sometimes I wonder if I am better off alone.

Shy people are often not noticed, but there isn't much unnoticed by the shy person. So many things can be running through my head at any moment that I will find myself just daydreaming. As it turns out, daydreaming during a formal class setting isn't really the best idea. I get very lost in class sometimes.

However, I have decided something. This decision started as a challenge my Institute teacher faced me with last Thursday. Basically, the challenge was to smile more. I know, it sounds so silly, but I suddenly have just felt like a happier person just because I have been striving to smile more. Strange, isn't it?

And then, all of the sudden, this morning it hit me. I have become the person I want to be. Of course I'm not entirely that person yet, but I am getting close. Who is this person? Well, it's someone who is cute, happy, stylish, has a great taste in music, and laughs a lot. I'm sure some people might refute and say that I have always been like that, but today I finally felt like it.

My decision? To be this person from now on.