I don't know about you, but I can be in a semi-coma state for hours and be totally happy about myself.

Song of the Day: Some Boys by Death Cab for Cutie

School is school is school is school.

 I should spend more time studying (because I've gotten two Bs so far on tests... both I'm fairly pleased with because of the amount of studying that I did on them. Sad but true fact), and less time watching Doctor Who. Although, I'm sure in Rhachel's perfect world, I'm doing it right.

Also, I always feel like I'm spending too much money on groceries, but really, I can't help it. Well, I guess I could help it if I decided to stop eating healthy. And bathing. But that's not going to happen any time soon.

So, what has Neffy been doing with her life, you ask? My answer is easy: nothing. I go to school, eat, do homework, and watch Netflix. I feel like my life hasn't changed at all in the past year or so... hah.

Whatever.

Oh, and if you're interested, I'm uploading a couple new mixes onto my 8tracks soon: http://8tracks.com/ohlovelyy. 

<3

a wishlist.

Song of the Day: Sparrow and the Wolf by James Vincent McMorrow

• a digital camera
• music that I actually want to listen to
• a waffle maker
• a shower that actually drains
• to have all of my German vocab memorized
• to not have to go to school would be nice too.

A lonely post.

Song of the Day: http://youtu.be/RJnMLBXm5VA
Cameron Mitchell's Such a Mystery

Hello and welcome back to my semi-normal life. Maybe that will mean I actually, like, update my blog and stuff (because I do so much of that). I think the biggest part of it is that I feel like I have nothing to really talk about on said blog that I am currently writing on. I mean, I don't live an exciting life. I get up, go to school, come home and do my homework, watch something on Netflix, and then go to bed. 

I'm really good at existing, aren't I?

This might be because I don't really have a lot of friends at school. I mean, let's face this, I'm really not good at making friends (sorry). I'm really shy/I have a hard time connecting to a lot of people. I just feel so different from most people. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be anti-social or anything. I try to be nice to people, and talk to them or whatever. I'm just not good at making friends. It might be a disease or something.

And it doesn't help that my roommates are either never around or are really good at not making any sounds at all. It's nice most days, but when I'm having a day like today, I like to have a little companionship or something, you know? I kind of have had the two extremes of roommates so far: last year, they were always around and being really loud and noisy. It was obnoxious a lot of the time, but it meant that they were there. And I was actually friends with them too. This year, I feel like I'm living with a bunch of strangers because I never see them. I have one roommate that I've probably seen five or six times total. And today, on campus, I was starting my walk home, and I saw a girl that I thought might have been my roommate, but I wasn't sure, so I didn't want to say hi to her and feel totally stupid or something.

Long story short: I'm totally lonely. If you're nearby, please come visit me.

In the meantime, I'll probably watch a movie on Netflix and go to bed since there's nothing else to do. Maybe I'll edit my story... I need to do that. 

Ideas to make my blog better/more interesting:

• list all my anime crushes I've ever had
• post about all my favorite bands/artists
• post about my favorite movies/tv shows/anime
• get a social life
• post about my favorite stories

it's the summer (I think).

um, hi. I'm actually alive (and stuff), I just never seem to blog because I have nothing to blog about (I do nothing really. I watch a lot of anime because I have nothing better to do, and sometimes I'll bake something like sweet potato fries or pull-apart bread. this is why I'm fat, yo).

But really, that's all. I'm an incredibly boring person as it is. That's why I'm all alone. (:

Sleepy Summer.

Song of the Day: Helena Beats by Foster the People

I have no idea why, but I have come to literally forget to blog. Or even read posts. As of the current, I have 24 blog posts to read. So, please, give me a moment to catch up.

Okay. Not that you would have known how long it really has taken me to, eh, skim all 24 unread blogs, but it's done. I suppose. I really don't have much of an excuse to not read everyone's blogs because >it's summer<, my goodness, I'm not doing ANYTHING. This is typical though. It's the same as most summers. I sit at home and read, watch TV, some random anime someone probably suggested to me years ago, amongst other things like going grocery shopping with my mom because she really wants me to get out of the house and do something (like get a job. Since I'm on the subject, I have concluded it's going to be impossible to get for just the summer. Okay, this is based off of the fact that I have had exactly one job interview and I wasn't called back for a second interview, but whatever. It made me realize that no one wants to hire for just summer work really. I mean, I wouldn't hire me anyway, unless I desperately needed workers and I was in a business that actually needed more workers in the summer). 

Speaking of things to do, I have a few things that I should probably get around to at some point in my life. For example, I need to print off my manuscript. I wrote it out of order, and it'll be a pain to fix up on a computer, so I need to print it out. Downside: it's 181 standard pages long. I have checked it out on several printing shops, and it's going to cost around $20 if I don't want anything special done to it. Sigh. It's a necessary expense, I guess. Plus, it'll make me very happy to get it printed off. I really want to work on it. Also, if I get the second draft done, maybe I'll let some of you read it... (:

My mom wants me to pick up a hobby like sewing, and make a skirt or a dress. I really want a maxi actually. I don't know if I can make one of those... can I? I'll have to ask, I guess. I need new clothes anyway. It's another necessary expense, I suppose. 

But other than than, the only other thing I can think of to do is draw. This is something I know I should do because... well... I kind of stopped drawing around junior year (or I drew significantly less than I did in years prior). I find this really depressing since it was around junior year that I actually started to produce work that was actually considered to be decent (compared to other artists that I admire). So, drawing is a yes. I need to do more of it and get better since I'm two to three years behind in development  It's really frustrating actually since I feel like I'm drawing like I'm 14 again.

Maybe I'll make another playlist or something...? 

I suppose I should get used to my loneliness though.I'm always forgotten in the summertime.

Summer.

Song of the Day: June Hymn by the Decemberists

I am currently enjoying my very first day of summer, thank-you-very-much. I spent the majority of today (and yesterday, for that matter), picking things up, organizing, and cleaning, all three of my favorite things to do. I feel supremely better now that everything is in a home (some of it shoved and forced to go into places that I never see.. such as my closet. It has a drying rack in front of it. On it is hanging my entire wardrobe [which is not much]. Why? Because my mother thought it would be a GRAND idea to place plastic shelving full of her craft things in the dead center of my closet. Therefore, nothing can be hung up in there, except for a few things shoved on the side... Where was this going? I don't even remember anymore).

Oh, I should mention that I moved my bamboo plant, which was residing on my the corner of my desk, next to my butterfly chair. Said bamboo plant is actually taller than I am. I actually got it during a New Beginnings when I lived back in Bend, OR. It was a baby then. We were told that these plants represented our testimonies, and that if we nurtured it, they would grow. Well, mine grew. A lot. It's also really wobbly, and kind of has to lean on something or else it'll fall over. I desperately need to repot it and tie it to a stick or something, the poor thing. But yeah, there it is, my testimony plant. 

On a side note that's related, Ashley, my older sister, got the same plant as me. For some reason, her's is not nearly as tall as mine. It still looks like a baby. 

On another side note that's still related, I should name my bamboo plant, yes? I've had it for six years (wow!), and it's kind of become a part of me because I see it like every day (except for the eight months I have been gone). I love my plant. Name ideas? Yes?

It who has not been named.

I semi miss being at school though. It is nice to be home and in my own room, but I miss my cute room mates! Three months without sharing a room with someone? It's gonna be weird... and nice. I have a lot of space and time. Time to write and be creative. I currently have nothing scheduling me to do anything really. I need to get a job badly, but I'm going to worry about that tomorrow or Monday. I am a free woman to do whatever she pleases! I think sleep sounds nice. Hahahah.  

My last day of school really felt like a last day of school though. It was like, I woke up, and I could feel it. It was the end. I am glad my freshman year is over, and I did it without getting a rock on my finger (take that family who said I would be engaged by Thanksgiving!! Not that I'm saying anyone who's getting married/is married who graduated with me is horrible for getting married... Good for you! I am sincerely happy for you! Really! It's just not for me). After our finals were over, Carly and I ran around the parking lot and tagged everyone in our apartment's cars. And then I packed up, and went home. 

This is how the van ended up:

I was the pink marker, and Carly's was the blue/purple one

Yeah baby~~

Sorry for the nasty glare! The sun was right there. But, yeah, I'm ready to drive my CRV again... Not that the Shaggin' Wagon isn't horrible or anything... (;

Anyway, the moral or this post is: it's summer!! I am so ready for the next three months. ((:

Oh, hello May, how are you?

Song of the Day: Hannah by Freelance Whalse

So, it's Sunday, it's May, and I'm listening to an 8track mix compiled completely out of Disney score music. Yes, I am currently procrastinating/increasingly becoming stressed about my papers that are due this week. I mean, seriously, it's Sunday. I don't really want to do homework, but I really need to because this second paper is due on Wednesday. 

But that's about the end of it. Once I finish this paper, my stress level will hit rock bottom (until I start looking for a job). 

Let's just say my life sucks at the moment and there is no end in sight. And jdksidhfjdhsahudfhsjafs Jane finally sent back my first paper (worst paper EVER).

I apologize if all I ever seem to be writing about is schoolwork and papers because, really, that's all that's going on in my life right now. Summer is surely to be worse since NOTHING will really be happening (thank goodness) save it for a job, occasional artwork (I'm taking Drawing I never semester, so I have to, uh, prepare myself for my first art class since Middle School), and reading books.

Maybe my blog will turn into a book review spot...?

Oh, my life. (is boring. always).