Sleepy Summer.

Song of the Day: Helena Beats by Foster the People

I have no idea why, but I have come to literally forget to blog. Or even read posts. As of the current, I have 24 blog posts to read. So, please, give me a moment to catch up.

Okay. Not that you would have known how long it really has taken me to, eh, skim all 24 unread blogs, but it's done. I suppose. I really don't have much of an excuse to not read everyone's blogs because >it's summer<, my goodness, I'm not doing ANYTHING. This is typical though. It's the same as most summers. I sit at home and read, watch TV, some random anime someone probably suggested to me years ago, amongst other things like going grocery shopping with my mom because she really wants me to get out of the house and do something (like get a job. Since I'm on the subject, I have concluded it's going to be impossible to get for just the summer. Okay, this is based off of the fact that I have had exactly one job interview and I wasn't called back for a second interview, but whatever. It made me realize that no one wants to hire for just summer work really. I mean, I wouldn't hire me anyway, unless I desperately needed workers and I was in a business that actually needed more workers in the summer). 

Speaking of things to do, I have a few things that I should probably get around to at some point in my life. For example, I need to print off my manuscript. I wrote it out of order, and it'll be a pain to fix up on a computer, so I need to print it out. Downside: it's 181 standard pages long. I have checked it out on several printing shops, and it's going to cost around $20 if I don't want anything special done to it. Sigh. It's a necessary expense, I guess. Plus, it'll make me very happy to get it printed off. I really want to work on it. Also, if I get the second draft done, maybe I'll let some of you read it... (:

My mom wants me to pick up a hobby like sewing, and make a skirt or a dress. I really want a maxi actually. I don't know if I can make one of those... can I? I'll have to ask, I guess. I need new clothes anyway. It's another necessary expense, I suppose. 

But other than than, the only other thing I can think of to do is draw. This is something I know I should do because... well... I kind of stopped drawing around junior year (or I drew significantly less than I did in years prior). I find this really depressing since it was around junior year that I actually started to produce work that was actually considered to be decent (compared to other artists that I admire). So, drawing is a yes. I need to do more of it and get better since I'm two to three years behind in development  It's really frustrating actually since I feel like I'm drawing like I'm 14 again.

Maybe I'll make another playlist or something...? 

I suppose I should get used to my loneliness though.I'm always forgotten in the summertime.

Summer.

Song of the Day: June Hymn by the Decemberists

I am currently enjoying my very first day of summer, thank-you-very-much. I spent the majority of today (and yesterday, for that matter), picking things up, organizing, and cleaning, all three of my favorite things to do. I feel supremely better now that everything is in a home (some of it shoved and forced to go into places that I never see.. such as my closet. It has a drying rack in front of it. On it is hanging my entire wardrobe [which is not much]. Why? Because my mother thought it would be a GRAND idea to place plastic shelving full of her craft things in the dead center of my closet. Therefore, nothing can be hung up in there, except for a few things shoved on the side... Where was this going? I don't even remember anymore).

Oh, I should mention that I moved my bamboo plant, which was residing on my the corner of my desk, next to my butterfly chair. Said bamboo plant is actually taller than I am. I actually got it during a New Beginnings when I lived back in Bend, OR. It was a baby then. We were told that these plants represented our testimonies, and that if we nurtured it, they would grow. Well, mine grew. A lot. It's also really wobbly, and kind of has to lean on something or else it'll fall over. I desperately need to repot it and tie it to a stick or something, the poor thing. But yeah, there it is, my testimony plant. 

On a side note that's related, Ashley, my older sister, got the same plant as me. For some reason, her's is not nearly as tall as mine. It still looks like a baby. 

On another side note that's still related, I should name my bamboo plant, yes? I've had it for six years (wow!), and it's kind of become a part of me because I see it like every day (except for the eight months I have been gone). I love my plant. Name ideas? Yes?

It who has not been named.

I semi miss being at school though. It is nice to be home and in my own room, but I miss my cute room mates! Three months without sharing a room with someone? It's gonna be weird... and nice. I have a lot of space and time. Time to write and be creative. I currently have nothing scheduling me to do anything really. I need to get a job badly, but I'm going to worry about that tomorrow or Monday. I am a free woman to do whatever she pleases! I think sleep sounds nice. Hahahah.  

My last day of school really felt like a last day of school though. It was like, I woke up, and I could feel it. It was the end. I am glad my freshman year is over, and I did it without getting a rock on my finger (take that family who said I would be engaged by Thanksgiving!! Not that I'm saying anyone who's getting married/is married who graduated with me is horrible for getting married... Good for you! I am sincerely happy for you! Really! It's just not for me). After our finals were over, Carly and I ran around the parking lot and tagged everyone in our apartment's cars. And then I packed up, and went home. 

This is how the van ended up:

I was the pink marker, and Carly's was the blue/purple one

Yeah baby~~

Sorry for the nasty glare! The sun was right there. But, yeah, I'm ready to drive my CRV again... Not that the Shaggin' Wagon isn't horrible or anything... (;

Anyway, the moral or this post is: it's summer!! I am so ready for the next three months. ((:

Oh, hello May, how are you?

Song of the Day: Hannah by Freelance Whalse

So, it's Sunday, it's May, and I'm listening to an 8track mix compiled completely out of Disney score music. Yes, I am currently procrastinating/increasingly becoming stressed about my papers that are due this week. I mean, seriously, it's Sunday. I don't really want to do homework, but I really need to because this second paper is due on Wednesday. 

But that's about the end of it. Once I finish this paper, my stress level will hit rock bottom (until I start looking for a job). 

Let's just say my life sucks at the moment and there is no end in sight. And jdksidhfjdhsahudfhsjafs Jane finally sent back my first paper (worst paper EVER).

I apologize if all I ever seem to be writing about is schoolwork and papers because, really, that's all that's going on in my life right now. Summer is surely to be worse since NOTHING will really be happening (thank goodness) save it for a job, occasional artwork (I'm taking Drawing I never semester, so I have to, uh, prepare myself for my first art class since Middle School), and reading books.

Maybe my blog will turn into a book review spot...?

Oh, my life. (is boring. always).

Soundtrack to April.

Song of the Day: MY KZ, UR BF by Everything Everything

For anyone who's interested (probably no one), I made a new 8tracks mix of which you can find here~. 

Um, anyway, it's Tuesday on the last week of classes of the semester. Then, I have no school until August!! It's kind of like running a really long race, and you can see the ribbon at the end, but not having enough energy to make it to the end. That's what I kind of feel like.

What I have to do between now and next Thursday:

• Finish my paper about Mormons settling the Salt Lake Valley (10 pp)
• Write a paper post-colonial analyzing A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and To Kill a Mockingbird (10-12pp)
• Finish my ENGL 2600 final
• Diversity Final (in class)
• German Final (in class)
• Pack
• Pay that stupid $10 parking violation ticket (uuggggggghhhhhhhh, screw you. Visitors were not welcome in "visitor welcome" parking apparently...
• Sell back my textbooks
• Get housing for next semester
• Fill up stupid van gas tank...

I have been having car difficultly lately, speaking of filling up the van's gas tank. Well, on Friday night, I was driving to the store to do grocery shopping for my mom, and my check engine light came on. The weird thing was that nothing seemed wrong with my car at all; it didn't sound funny, and it was driving just as it normally does. But, just in case, I told my dad. My dad was quit busy on Saturday afternoon, so he was planning on looking at it on Monday. The problem was that I had school on Monday... so, that didn't exactly work out too well. My mom and I switch cars, therefore I am driving the mini-van. A Green mini-van. There is no way you can miss me now! 

I'm mostly upset because the van's gas tank is almost empty, whereas I just filled up the tank of my Honda last Thursday, and I'm not going to be seeing any of that gas. So, now I have to fill up another gas tank... and pay a parking fine for parking in VISITOR WELCOME parking on campus. The sign clearly says VISITORS WELCOME, not so much with the (if you have a permit). SCREW YOU. It's only $10, but I'm still very upset over it. IT'S APPARENTLY NOT VISITOR WELCOME PARKING SO DON'T PUT IT ON YOUR EFFING SIGN. 

Hating life. 

Love, Neffy.

Sunny Days.

Song of the Day: I Was Made For Sunny Days by the Weepies

For some reason or other, I get the incredible urge to update my blog on Thursdays.But why Thursdays? Perhaps it is because Thursdays are good days. I like Thursdays because it's almost Friday. On a similar note, I also like Tuesdays because it's no longer Monday. Ya dig?

This is my last full week of classes. Next week, we have Good Friday off, and the following week, Friday is a study day. The week after is Finals week. I'm pretty excited to get school over with for the summer. I am ready for some heat in these bones and some leisure reading/drawing/writing time. Hopefully, I'll get time to finish watching the entire Sailor Moon series. It's a project I started the day after Valentine's Day. Sailor Moon was a huge part of my childhood; I was obsessed! I would print out coloring pages, record episodes, even google Sailor Moon websites built by people who were in love with Sailor Moon (like me) but had the ability to make their own webpage. Watching the series again is a lot of fun, and it's more fun to watch it in its original language (which is the whole purpose of me watching it again... To see the original intent mostly. The English version is nice too though. Maybe I'll watch it in English one day? In like four years from now...)

Also, on a Sailor Moon-y note, they are re-releasing the manga of Sailor Moon in America with new translations. Call me a nerd (which, I'm assuming you all ready have), but I'm really excited for the new releases! If I get money, I fully plan on buying them for my own library. (:

[/end nerd rant]

Between now and Finals, I have to:

1. Write my 10 page ENGL 2010 research paper (which I have nine pages of single spaced notes all ready typed and ready to go. I just have to physically write the paper now).

2. Write/hopefully complete (but it's okay if I don't finish 100%) my ENGL 2600 essay on a Post-colonial reading of James Joyce's A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and To Kill a Mockingbird (10-12 page paper).

3. Do my ENGL 2600 take-home final (it's on key terms and stuff. Hate you, Literary Theory).

4. Study for my German Final

5. Study for my Intro to Diversity Final

6. Not kill any of my room mates (who are incessantly loud and obnoxious during the hours I typically like to sleep, between 11 and 8. Yes, I sleep a lot. I like to sleep. It keeps me from not killing anyone).

And that's basically my state I will be in for the next three weeks. I'll probably procrastinate a lot and freak out at last minute. But that's okay, I kind of like it that way.

Life So Far.

Song of the Day: Get Some by Lykke Li

As it turns out, when my hair is pulled back in a bun, and I'm wearing a hoodie, I look like I'm five-years-old. I suppose this isn't a huge shock, but still. I just thought I would point that out.

But here I am, sitting on my bed listening to a new album I just got (Parlor Hawk's Hoarse and Roaring. It's divine so far), and with a massive stomach ache (nothing new), contemplating my life. True, I tend to do this more often than not anymore, but still.

All that I have uncovered is that I want to be able to draw flowers. 

Okay, so, maybe there's a little more to it. 

Lately, I actually have been considering switching schools because of my difficulty I've been having with basic academic work for a typical university (On a side note, if anyone know anything about Post-structuralism and Joyce's A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, let me know. I need help writing a paper). I even talk to my mom about dropping out of school. Her response was that I should do what I want to do, but she thinks that I should stay in school to be around people closer to my age. This makes well enough sense. So, I'm probably not going to drop out of school because of that very reason, and the fact that I am one class short of getting an associate's degree. The bad news about getting the degree itself, is that I can't receive it until the end of the net academic school year. Sucks, no? Looks like I'll be here for another year. But I think I'll be okay. Instead of signing up for classes that I have to take, I'm actually taking a ton of mismatched classes that I kind of want to take, like Drawing I and Children's Literature. True, I still have to take Chemistry and pretend to be an English major (therefore, I have to take German too. This is not so bad though. I like German for the most part), but I really do think next semester will be better.

Anyway, after the year is over, I'm thinking about transferring to an art school, like the Art Institute up in Salt Lake, and studying Interior Design. I know I'm crazy, but it sounds fun, and it sounds like something I really should do.

Don't get me wrong about SUU, I love it here. I have never had a bad professor, and campus is sweet and cozy. I really do love it here, but it's not for me. University isn't for me.

Actually, what I really want to do is find the man of my dreams and get married (my true passion... to raise kids and clean and cook! Yes, I was like this before General Conference, thanks). But I don't see that happening this year. So, I have my plan, and I'm sticking to it.

Unless something awesome happens (like getting married or publishing my book).

Yes, I had to bring up my book. Sunflowers. I've mentioned it once or twice before, yes? Well, actually, an amazing thing happened recently. I finished my first draft of my manuscript! This sounds really exciting, but I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be when I finished for some reason. It's probably because I still have a long way to go with editing and supplementing chapters and whatnot, but still. It's done. I have never finished a manuscript before.

This is amazing. 

This week seemed so long. And now, it's Thursday.  

Goals.

Beside the fact that I am dying a slow death from daily stomach aches, I do try to function as normally as I should be. Okay, so it probably wasn't normal that I cried throughout the ENTIRE A Cinderella Story, but I do what I can.

Lately, I have been wondering why I haven't been able to focus (yeah, I am blogging instead of doing homework) on anything (see what I mean? I'm totally A.D.D.), but I thought I would at least have a few goals to work on for the next several weeks:

1. Stop chewing finger nails. It's a nasty habit that I have. It's on and off, really, but I'm trying. I even painted my nails today, in hopes that it'll help somewhat. I want pretty nails... (:

2. Finish ENGL 2010 research paper. I want this to be done in the next several weeks, like, around General Conference. Once it's finished, I don't have to go to the class anymore. Nice, no? Not to mention, it's supposed to be 10-12 pp long, and I have another 10-12 pp paper due at the end of the semester on top of this one.

3. Finish Sunflowers. If you're not aware what Sunflowers is, don't ask. Only one/maybe two people will even care about this. I just want to finish it mostly. (:

4. Figure out why I am dying a slow death due to stomach aches.

yep. That's about it. I'm sorry my blogs are few and far between. I like to blog sometimes, but I feel like all I do is complain, and I also feel like not many people even care that I blog. So, I just do when I feel like it.

That's all.